It’s never going to be easy, but it’s worth the reward that you’ll bring on your scales.
For the sake of Allah, forgive and move on, live a lighter and a more peaceful life.
وَلْيَعْفُوا وَلْيَصْفَحُوا ۗ أَلَا تُحِبُّونَ أَن يَغْفِرَ اللَّهُ لَكُمْ ۗ وَاللَّهُ غَفُورٌ رَّحِيمٌ
سورة النور ٢٤
And let them pardon and overlook. Would you not like that Allah should forgive you? And Allah is Forgiving and Merciful.
Surah an Noor 24
